You know those moments where you're just you, and then all of a sudden somebody says or does something that just scratches you the wrong way, and you just snap? And then that, along with a growing fustration between you and said person, about 12 weeks of continuous stress after enduring 8 weeks of a different type of stress, continuous feelings of failure and just stoic emotions, lack of sleep and the continuous feeling (actually knowledge) that he just regards you as a mindless dumb fuck...and then you just snap?
Well I had one of those moments about 3 hours ago. And then I, in my somewhat deluded state, came to this realization that I was filled with this giant amount of just raw emotions...raw energy...I know it only lasts for a brief moment but I wish that I had the ability to draw well. Today, when it happened I was filled with the raw emotion known as anger....fustration...I was pissed off (but not to the point where I was seeing red...that happend last semester). But it was when I was being filled with these feelings that this one phrase kept screaming in my head..."A bullet in my head...a bullet in my head...a bullet in my head". If I could draw something, I totally would. I rarely have these moments.
I swear I don't need therapy.
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